Overwhelmed

I don't know there are pieces of me that I can't figure out.  Why I can't keep people.  I want to keep people and not lose who I am.  I don't want to fake it until I make it because I don't want to be fake who I am,  I don't want to pretend to be someone that I am not.  I want people who will stay who will listen who will help who will remember who will support who will understand the little things.  I don't want someone to remind me how much time they have spent, want me to be different,  doesn't remember important things, Maybe I just want to much.  I think I just want others to remember the big things and see if I am ok. So its too much to ask but I want forever friends.  Maybe someday I can find that right ??

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