Unbelievable crazy today the little girl that started it all turns twenty today ! She is not that little girl anymore, she is a young woman who lives hard and loves deeply. She is attending school and doing all things that 20 year old's are supossed to be doing. Living life, traveling, having boyfriends, and celebrations and friends all great things and I am more than excited to see all those things for her. And its crazy when I was her age, all those years ago I was pressing charges on my father to make sure that she got to have that normal life. I am not sure she had that normal life but I am sure that it was better that my father wasn't a part of that. There are still so very many things that I wish I could change for her; for me. I wish that I was there more; able to support her more give her more love prove to her just how special that she is. I hope that she is able to see that before I even knew her I was going to do everything possible to make sure that she was safe and sound. She is everything good pure and innocent and no one stood up for me when I was small I was going to fight for her to make sure that she was safe that she was taken care that she would never know my father the way that I did. There are many things that I don't know about her many questions that I have to ask. I hope that someday I will have that chance. When she is ready when I am ready when those cards fall into place.
I feel like there are so many things to say things to express things that I am not even sure that words can express. This was the first picture that I ever saw of her and meant more than words can say. I hope that someday we can talk and ask all of the things that are unspoken , experience all the things that we never got the chance to do. I just want to walk on the ocean. I want to know about her life how things went. I want to know her thoughts her dreams. I want to know that she understands how much I wanted to keep her safe. That my entire reason for doing what I did was for her to have a happy life. To experience things that were taken away from Me before I even knew about the craziness of this life.
As she turns 20 I think of the song that I heard for her all those years ago that still are more than true. I hope you Dance. I hope you Dance Angela and enjoy every crazy second of this life .
LeighAnn Womack "I hope you Dance"
I heart your heart Angela always always . Much Love .
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