Closest EVER....

Little Callahan was the closest that she has ever been on Tuesday. Like right there in front of me, right between Mark and I . She so wanted to reach out for a hug, but I think the stun factor of her being so close was more than overwhelming for me.  Like so close she was inches in front of me, she was this little person who wanted nothing more than a kind safe hug. To be heard to be valued to truly matter.  I am not sure if she has ever really gotten any of that.  I know that Mark was saying something but the world stopped and just like that she was right there.  That has never happened before, she was close enough , and right in front of my face facing mark. I could have reached out and touched her.  She was strong and more than brave.  I keep trying to find a picture and I have yet to find one,  I wish that I drew to be able to draw what was happening in my head.   All she wanted was a safe hug and for me I knew that I had already taken too much time,  and I wouldn't ask for another one.  So strange.  She was so so so close.  I keep looking for the right picture for the right words and I still haven't found any.  What made her get that close and want a hug, I am not sure that she would have let go, all she saw was safety and she wanted a hug to forget all the bad and make everything ok.